um...today at work was pretty boring...not much to do...pretty blah..

nothing much to report

im just here in my room...tv off...listening to cocteau twins...its nice

well, when i was done at work i was waiting to be picked up, so then i hear my cell phone ring...so i take it out of my bag and i see that i have 2 missed calls...so i see that its my sister calling from her cell phone...so i all and apperantly her and her 2 corn children are with my mom...so anyway, she tells me that they got they were involved in a car accident...a car had hit them from behind...so she says that theyre with the cops and that they wont be around for like 20 min...so im all like ok...so then im outside waiting...so a guy at work decides to wait with me...even though i told him not to...so i guess there are some good people in the world...so anyway, then my mom finally arrives...so the lady that hit them wasnt even looking...they were stopped and she hit them...so i think that all four of them got some sort of whiplash or something...im glad that i wasnt there...i dont need to be in another crash....so i guess today when they all get up well know if theyre hurt, i dont know if theyre going to the doctor or anything...but my mom went to bed early...she didnt even turn off the phone or anything.....so i dunno what will happen.

it rained mighty much on the way home...the streets were very flooded...at least it wasnt raining during the accident...

so that was my day...thats the story of my life.......................

grah!!!!!

well i was mighty happy earlier when i got home from work cos i had a package waiting for me...it was the velvet underground & nico limited edition deluxe edition of "the velvet underground & nico" album...its really nice, the packaging and all...and it has a peelable andy warhol banana...its really shibby..its "thick gravy good"..lol...so now i have 2 copies of the disk, the regular one and now the deluxe version...ill prolly end up giving the regular one away to somebody in need of good music....yes, i spend alot of money on music, but if you dont like it well then fuck you...haha...well, now you can tell the type of mood im in...the language gives it away...i really should be asleep, cos today i have to wake up at 630..thats in 5 hours...fuck that...hahahaha...yes, im psycho.

well im in this mood cos people make me this way...especially when they are all fake...blah blah this and blah blah that..who do they think they are fooling...it makes me mighty mad..do they think theyre doing people favors?...grah!!!! im done crawling...

today i was mighty depressed at work...listened to velvet underground, die form, fiona apple, the strokes, and pj harvey....i got mighty tired of being in front of the computer all day...blah

watched 2 buffy eppys today...so that was good.

carried mah stray cat today...i love her....shes the only one that appreciates me..and enjoys me....moo

i freaked a girl at work cos i told her what gelatin really was...she didnt believe me, but of course im always ready to back myself up with facts...i like ruining things for people...it seems to be the only thing im good at.

i guess thats all...oh yeah, i added a comment thingy....not as if its gonna get used, but it makes my bloggy look more purty...it pleases me so....good day...ta

listening to: david bowie "conversation piece"

oh no, the sign language chimp died...really, i just saw it on the telly...it was 29....so sad...poor talking chimp :(

well, while at work today during lunch i continued to read "glue" by irvine welsh...and at page 30 i came to the realization that i didnt know what the hell was going on...ive learned my lesson, dont read books written in scottish...seriously..i know that its not that difficult, but i couldnt make heads from tails...so i just gave up and returned the book..yes im a loser for quitting but i just wasnt getting it...::shrugs::

so now im reading and easy young adult book...."the catcher in the rye" by j.d.salinger...yes i know that i shouldve already read this whilst still in school...but it was never assigned...and i was lazy...so now im gonna read it...see, im already on page 53..for sure ill be done in a couple of days, its a short book...so thats good.

today at work i listened to david bowie(of course), rasputinas "cabin fever" and "how we quit the forest", velvet undergrounds "velvet underground and nico", lou reed "transformer",...um i think thats it....meep

so apperantly dr.pepper is the official athiest drink or something like that...so theres these people making much fuss about it at work ::eyes are rolling out of sockets:: ...those silly coworkers..so closeminded.

today i got a copy of cocteau twins "victorialand" from a coworker, so i listened to that like 5 times through already...yes, im mighty wonky.

jadjadjf...ive been all sorts of tired today...blah...and caffine does nothing for me....so im all sorts of zombieish humanoid...huh?...um yes...um...incoherence is sinking in...huh...ye...s....

ok, thats all for today....mighty good day to all...and a goodnite from me...um....thats all...::waves::...huh?...yes.

listening to: pulp "underwear"

moo...um....today was just...um..dunno...just blah...well, when i woke up, i was in a hurry, cos i hadnt put any cds in mah new cd case, so before work i was going through all my collection looking for which 32 cds to lug around...so i was pretty much tornadic...so i already cleaned up the mess, but everything all out of sorts...all the cds are in wrong cases and...its just a big mess, ill worry about it later....

at work i was just feeling mighty bad....sad...dunno, being stuck in my little room....nobody saying hi to me....just watching the crowds through the glass...theyre all there for a reason....and im not anybodys reason....so i was there scanning the pics...listening to ravi shankar...the music made me all dance on the inside...i was ready to start belly dancing...well not really, but still...and of course i listened to the new david bowie at work....but anyway, whilst i was working the old ladies went in so i had to quit listening to mah music and listen to them...grah....fun was had by all....

its late, i should be asleep already...meep

whilst bathing i was terrorized by a spidery....i swear that it was stalking me...i was all paranoid...watching it scale the ceiling...it wanted to leap on me or something...evil spidery....::shudders::

ok, thats all....i should be asleep!!!!!..ok buh bye....g'day.

listening to: david bowie "slip away"

well, it was all sorts of hot today...blah...its ok at work, cos im in the ac...but when i exit..its mighty hot!!!

whilst looking through the books...searching for anything of interest...i came across some buffy books!!!! the buffy movie book, and books from the series...dunno if im ready for buffy books yet...mayhaps later..but not now...but it was mighty exciting to see such things....yes, im easily excited...moo

at work i listened to david bowie, sarah brightman, unto ashes, sigur ros and nico.

i went to target after work and got a cd case...so that i dont have to carry all those cds around....got some more blank cds..spent most of my last cds on unappreciative peoples..but thats ok...it meant something to me....and of course while i was there i had to scour the cd section...and what did i run across? the new david bowie...the 2cd version....so of course i had to give it a home...so now im a proud owner of "heathen"...and its mighty good too...so ive been listening to it for several hours already....so that made me all sorts of happy...so yay!!!!

tonight there was a mighty fantastic orange moon....if only the moon would take me away....

goodbye ann landers....goodbye.

i guess thats all....good day...much love..blah

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes...hehehe

hm....ive been listening to cocteau twins alot...this guy at work made me a copy of "pink opaque" cocteau twins release...so ive been familiarizing myself with that...good stuffs.

v.i.p. with pam anderson is so dumb that its somewhat good...well its tolerable to say the least...she was riding a giant banana..it was gonna squash her, but then she jumped on it..haha..well you had to see it to find the humor in it.

sat i watched "pi" the movie...good stuffs...its about a guy who is obsessed with breaking the stockmarket...hes good with numbers..well, the way i describe it makes it sound stupid, but its a very strange and good movie...um...yes.

lately all the hollywoodness has been bugging me mighty much...seriously, whenever i turn the telly on, i have to hear about the "wonderful" new cruise movie...if its so good, then why does he have to promote it so much....and oh, disney has a new movie..lets drown people with all the adverts...shove it in their faces...yes, im crazy, i know it...and now so do you....i know that i shouldnt let stupid stuffs like this bug me, but it just does...grah!!!

sat i ate like 5 blowpops...beware, do not attempt to bite into a blowpop at an odd angle...seriously, it made my teeth go through a not so good feeling...i was all like...ow!!!...but of course i kept biting them...just more carefully....i usually hate the grape ones, but i was just going through a grapey mood so i was eating all them grapeys.

hm...work today...well later today...id rather work everyday than have days off...my life is just to boring to have days off...a day off means me being in bed all day..waking up, eating, taking a nap, waking, watching tv, snack, then internet, then sleep...blah....ive got nobody to bring a spark of joy to my empty life...the void...it needs to be filled....the job is a reason to live...during my last job, i was normal...i would go out and have fun, drive, everything, then after i quit it i became all crazyish...and still am....oh well.

um...i guess thats it..im empty.........................ok well....good day to all...dont spend so much time in front of the computer, it cant be health for you..seriously, im worried...ok well its your life...just be careful..ok...well...hugstablovekissbye.

::ARGH!!!!!!!!!!::

the good thing about work is that im usually walking alot or using the stairs or something...much better than me being a bedpotato here at home

ive been neglecting my reading this week...ive only read like 10 pages..meep...maybe ill read today and tomorrow...reading makes the mind go "moo"

i used to have all sorts of stuffs to write, but now im being all droughtish...mah mind is dry...to quote pj harvey "you leave me dry"...so yeah...

at first it kind of bugged me, but now i love udo kiers voice...its very charming in its own kind of way.

i like cashews...theyre yummy, plus its a funny word..everybody together.."CASHEWS!!!!!!!" good .

i hate spam mail...everyday i have like 50 new spamys in my account...i guess thats better than nothing..

i read an article that said that both giles and tara will make apperances in buffy next season..so woo. on a sadder note, theyre getting rid of the doublemeat palace...no more "doublemeat is double sweet"....oh.

im sleepy now...whats new.....ok well i guess thats all....lovelove hughug stabstab kisskiss nitenite...bye.

mmmmmmcookies...hehe...if you know what this means then you are mighty awesome.

i guess things have been going well at work...its really nice...the people, the environment..pretty much everything...i have my own mail box...woo....today it is already gonna be 3 weeks of work...woo again.

now theres just one thing thats missing from my life......and you know what it is....::sigh::

so, i guess thats all....oh well....the job has made me even boringer.....plus im sleepy....so gnite.

well a while ago i went outside to look at the sky..it was mighty fantastic...lots of stars and wonderful translucent clouds slowly wafting by...and the moon...my moon...sometimes i have the strangest thoughts...whilst i was staring up at the moon..i had this thought.."what if somebody stabs my whilst im looking up"...weird, no?...but thats just me.

oh my god how austin powers annoys the hell out of me...enough said, i wont waste anymore words on it.

today when i got home i was mighty tired...its cos today i went through the stairs like 10 times...its only 2 floors, but still...you cant go from nothing to something...shock...it shocks the body....and also i move boxes...so after i got home and ate i feel asleep for like 2 hours..meep

sometimes i see some pretty....interesting(emphesis on pretty) people at the library...and i think..."maybe they need help" but they just walk by and am all like....::sigh::...so im still here waiting for the one...well more like anyone

i get paid today...so yay

its funny that ive addicted my mother to buffy...so again i say "yay"

yesterday i got a pack of blowpops so ill have something to nibble on when im bored...plus im addicted to sugar.

well thats all....til morrow...much love and all that stuff.

today has been all sorts of interesting....it was as if it was attack of the past...today i saw 5 people from the past...well not all of them are exactly from the past, but i dont see them quite often....well 2 of my friends visited me and we went to lunch at dairy queen.....me? i had fries of course...and then at the library i saw 2 other ex college peoples...so that was interesting..then after i got out of work i went to the store and i saw this guy that i used to work with....dunno, i think that the past is trying to drawn me..woo

david bowie was on conan tonight..so yay...he talked some and then sang his 2 new songs....cant get enough bowie...keep it coming.

a while ago i watched "flesh for frankenstein"....good movie...it funny how it takes itself seriously..."DECAPITATION!!!!"...well i liked it...this guy at work lent it to me, he also lent me "blood for dracula"..might watch it right now...or tomorrow...dunno....woo

um....i guess thats all....ok...well..thats all...sleep..now!!!

hm....im watching soccer....why?...dunno...its lured me...i mean i dont like it or anything...but its hypnotic....must keep watching..ohh. :P.anyway..

talked on the phone today with 3 different friends...3......so today 2 of my friends are gonna visit me at work during lunch...how shibby is that...its nice when people visit...even though most dont...and they could, but they dont...cos they dont care....but its nice that some do...so as i was saying..yay...and its nice when they call you..and chat with you....and you dont have to be the one who brings it all about...its nice when the other person does it...unlike some people who are just evil clowns...anyway...

so i finished the poppy z. brite book, so now im gonna attempt to read "glue" by irvine welsh...from the few pages that ive read ive been kinda lost...cos it has all these pasages written in scottish...so im all like...huh?...but ill try to read it anyway..

work has been ok....my coworkers are all mostly nice...so far everything has been peachy.

arent cats funny?..i just love watching them stray cats whilst they march along...uncaring...it just makes me smile.....moo...er..i mean..meow

ok...well thats enough for today...so buh bye...adios...hasta luego.

people seem to keep adding me to their buddy lists...yet they dont email...so im all like...crazy derranged stalkers..the whole lot!!! so anyway, why dont they email first...that way i know if it was a mistake or not...and where did they get the addy from...cos it clearly states here in the blogger that the buddy lists drive me batty...so where...why...and WHY?...yes, im mighty wonky...just ignore

ok, now go on, go to sleep...NOW!!!!

blarg....um...yes

the job has made me tired guy, now im always tired...i even slept like 10 hours..and still im tired..

today was listen to music and read your library book day...so i listened to david bowie, the strokes, fiona apple, lou reed, and yoko ono....and i read of course...i almost finish...incestuous vampires...whats better than that...um...yes...anyway....so ill prolly finish today..so yay.

i got my new license in the mail today...well, i cant believe that the photo didnt come out all screwy...i dont love it, but its ok and viewable...and i look exactly the same as the 4 year old license....well anyway, im glad that the pic is ok since i have to have it til 2008...how scary....how old...

2 weeks at work already...woo

i guess thats all....ok gnite..............me is kinda enamoured..yes?........what does that mean?.. :P
ok sleep now!!!!

moan..groan...urg.....im all sorts of tired right now...i think im gonna go to sleep early, even though i dont have too...the job is taking too much out of me....im just all...moo

the moon was smiling again today...so yay.

david bowie came out on the today show...well i taped it cos i had to be at work...so anyway, when i got home i was all like..yay...he sang 2 old songs, and 2 new songs...however, i am disappointed at the old songs that he chose...they are 2 of my least favorites..."fame" and "lets dance"...but i guess any bowie is great bowie..so anyway....yay..

...ok too tired to put anything else.....gnite...love ya.

yay, the strokes were on jay leno!!! and they did my favorite song!!! woo.

tonight was a mighty purty starry sky...and a smiling moon...and im pretty sure that i saw a shooting star....too bad that doesnt really mean much....but the sky was nice...besides, i had been neglecting my moon obsession...i hadnt mentioned it in quite a while..anyways, moon=woo!!!

soccer...huh?

my job was supposed to keep my mind off of sad things...well, for the most part it has, however, its just made me feel mighty lonely...now i always feel alone..more than usual....and also, the books i read...they just make me long for more...age doesnt stop whilst you look for love...oh well..crazy cat person...woo

well i did one good thing today...in the living room there was a little mothy creature...he couldnt get out, he was at the window, so i caught it in my hands and set it free..so yay!!!

hollywood must die.

alone..alone....when will it be my time...everybody is looking for somebody, but nobody is looking for me....im here...hi...

goodnite...sorry....goodnight.

um....dunno what to state...

well, i finished the james dean book, so now im reading "lost souls" by poppy z brite..so...woo

there was a squirrel in the yard today...so..thats new

im so funny..no?...not as in humerous...as in actitude...my little obsessions...how they waver.....its odd really..so i guess its not so much as funny as it is bizarre...i think i have such strange obsessions cos it give me something to do...something to love...its the substitute...either that or im just all wonkyed out...

sitting in a room with old people for 2 hours is not recommended....believe me, fun was had by all....

ive found myself saying "oy" or "oi" whatever...whenever i stand up or move around...the body aches....i dont mean to say it, it just come out...::oy::

ive been watching morrissey videos alot lately...brings back memories...sad ones..

my room is such a mess!!!! theres books and cds and bags and more cds...i just want to throw everything all around...gives me a headache just thinking about it.

sunday im gonna have to hug both my parents...a. cos its fathers day, and b. cos its my mothers birthday....its a conspiracy i say!!!

ok, thats all...nightynite...dont let the sharks bite....

so today i finished reading the james dean book...now im sad...i didnt really know if i was gonna get sad..cos after all, i already knew the outcome of the book...but still...thats one of the reasons that i decided to start reading it at home instead of work break....so anyway, i just had a feeling it was gonna happen....so when i got to that paragraph..it just hit me...it was just so horrible...tragic...of course it made me cry...but i guess its ok, i hadnt cried in a while...so i pretty much cried for the last pages...i didnt want the book to end...i guess i had it in my mind that if the book didnt end..then he wouldnt have to die..but alas.....im such a weirdo, now i have it in my mind that i have to visit his grave...his and nico's in berlin..i dont know what it is about me and dead people....so after finishing reading, now i feel like he was a friend...you know what made me smile? the fact that he would occationally moo...and sometimes i moo...well, i dont moo, but i type the word "moo"...so i thought that was shibby....i wonder how long this current obsession will last...if it doesnt wear out soon im gonna end up getting his movies......thats not such a bad thing...i guess

the other day i saw the new blues clues...it didnt feel right...not without steve...i dont like joe..hes not steve...sure it had the shibby lil songs, but i want steve to sing them not joe...without steve it just seemed like some little kids show...::sigh:: oh well..

ive been listening to velvet underground alot lately...and the special 2 disc edition of velvet underground and nico is gonna come out on june 25...im gonna get it...even though i already have the regular version...im kooky like that...woo...charge now..pay later.

POTATO SALAD!!!!!!

DAVID BOWIE!!!!!

ok, thats enough excitement for one day..moo...goodnite love.

attack of the monkey uncle...part 3
well, early this morning..at 3...i was minding my own business, then all of a sudden i heard it, yep...knocking at the door..again...and who was it you ask?....why, it was my monkey uncle...again...whats wrong with these people..dont they have homes...so anyway, hes outside knocking at 3 in the morning...of course im not gonna answer...so i quickly turn off the tv and computer so that no light will show...so anyway he goes back next door to my other monkey uncles house...so after that, im too tired to even continue web surfing, so i just decided to go to sleep....so, my mom tells me that when she went outside at 7 that he was already there waiting..gah...why cant i have normal good uncles...no..i have crazy drunk monkey uncles...on a related note, my uncle from next door has been called, by another uncle, an ape from planet of the apes...so, that only adds to the monkeyness..woo

my job has made me lose interest in the internet and such...ive been finding it a chore to update this here blogger..but im not ready to give it up...not just yet.

saturday i went to a health food store and bought some egg and dairyless mayo...so now i can have my potato salad..yay!!!!..so now im gonna be eating potato salad alot...well until it finishes...so anyway, im so happy!!!!!!!..i also got some blue corn chips..yum...the only thing is that these things cost alot, well not alot, but more than the usual stuff...but its worth it...

ive been reading alot lately...instead of leaving the book at work, i decided to bring it home for the weekend, and read...its strange, how when you read about somebody, you feel like you actually know that person...it begins to feel real...so anyway, i can claim that i know james dean now...the morrissey "suedehead" video now makes sense...well, james dean is like one of morrisseys heros, in the video he visits james deans birth town, his grave, his school, plays the bongos(like james), etc..etc..i think that morrissey goes by james' sexual philosophy...not going through life with one hand tied behind the back..as james put it..anyway, james' life is much sad...oh yeah, the book is called "little boy lost" by joe hyams...its mighty good...i only need 100 more pages....go read it..now!!!

well, as might know, i hate david letterman, anyway, tonight im gonna watch...well the last few minutes atleast..cos david bowie is gonna be on!!!! new material from the heathen release..woo!!! so thats gonna be required watching..and recording...so anyway, woo again!!!!

i think my mind is leaving me, i hadnt posting this...R.I.P. Dee Dee Ramone 1952-2002..ok, thats all..

i had a buffy dream yesterday..nothing juicy, just willow and tara and assorted majiks...cant really remember all the details...meep

adventures in printshoping
gah...so sun i went to the stupid printshop...stupid man doesnt realise that i hate it there...he always has to torture me with his music...he listens to four things....country, tejano, christian, and tejanochristian...so im always like.."gah!!!!"...i dont want to go anymore, he just needs me for stupid lil things like changing some text...::hiss::...so he gave me 10 dollars..so i guess thats something.....gah

so, i guess i survived the first week of work..so just like 12 more weeks to go..woo

the other day i heard "send my an angel" and it made me smile..cos its the singalong song for somebody that makes me smile...so it just brought back happy memories...ahahahhhhhh!!!!!

friday i saw one of my old coworkers at my job...so i was all like hi!!!! but i could really speak to her cos i was working...she was one of the few people that i tolerated at my old job....she was the customerservicer by day, and the dancer by night....we had a strange friendship...she was a user of men..but she couldnt get me to follow her orders...deep down inside she was nice...well to me anyway...she had all these guys to pay for her car and school...we would steal water and slap butts and we were just strange friends...one time a guy that worked there was talking about the people that he concidered his friends from there...and when he didnt mention her i asked..and he said..."shes a dancer, shes nice to everybody"...well that made me feel bad for her, cos i know that she really was a good person....when i quit she gave me her cell number to call whenever i needed anybody to talk to...but of course i never called...so it was nice to see her after a year and a half...her and her baby, and her guy...oh well.

im not as sad as usual, it cos of the job...i stay tired...too tired to even be sad...i just dont have time to be sad...but sometimes i think that i deserve to be sad..even if im not...but i will be sad if im not able to meet somebody soon...where are you love? i just need somebody to rest my head on(thats james deans move)...anyway, ill be here waiting....ill come running to you...love

ok, thats all for now...im tired..as always....so.....goodnite and good luck

grumble...mmmooo...imm tired....sleepy......sleepy i say..

ok thats all.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

um....um....yeah...

well, i gotta sleep earlier today cos i gotta wake up at 630....urg

um...i got paid today, so thats good...woo

i guess thats it...ill prolly write more stuffs tomorrow, since i dont work sat...ill be able to stay up all night and morning..woo

today is already a whole week of work...meep

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um....tired...yes

i started reading the james dean book today during lunch..so that was good...of course i didnt want to stop reading, but what are you gonna do?...eh

today before i go to work im gonna go get my new license...eh

they said that i could listen to music whilst i work...so that should make things mighty much better...now, what to listen to...cds or internet radio?...dunno

the dreams, THE DREAMS!!!! ok well...i guess i was at my house....somebody wanted to threaten my sister...but she wasnt here any more, so when i answered the phone they decided to threated me...so then i was looking around outside for anything suspicious....then there was a bunch of people...i guess school people(i always dream about school!!!!) so then there was this little boy that had ninja stars and threw them....i left, so they ended up killing somebody else....then we were gonna go on a trip by plane...so we were waiting somewhere that had lots of computers....then my friend(he always ends up in my dreams) was there, so he and i started to play a video game on the computer....and thats all i remember...a pretty busy dream i might add.

um....i guess thats all....gnite, sleep tight, dont let the aliens bite..or do other stuffs to you....woo

um...i guess ill write some more stuffs...um...the elevator at work is making me feel all dizzy like...

OH..yesterday they once again showed the fabulous sarah brightman special on pbs....since i had already taped it from the first time..and watched it just a few days ago..i wasnt as overjoyed, but i still watched most of it....the only time they show her is when they want money....but its ok, as long as i get to watch her....and then they showed charlotte church...i still prefer sarah to charlotte, but i like them both...

whilst looking for books to check out, i ran into 3 different david bowie books, but opted to wait til next time to get them...i only wanted to get 2 books...i dont want to over do it....also, i saw a yoko ono book...must read!!!!

where i work theres these large windows, so the birds are always crashing into them...its sad, so from my work area i can see the body of a dead bird...nobody bothers to remove it....today as i worked, a bird crashed and scared me...but he was just dazed and flew away after a short rest...i want them to put up little stickers or something on the windows to prevent this from happening any more..poor birdys.

ok, thats all....this time for real....gnite.

um...grumble grumble....mumble grumble..

ill prolly just be posting sporatically during the week...but who cares, not me..not you....why should i care if i dont post anything?...and nobody should care cos nobody reads...so nobodys cares...woo

i checked out 2 books today...one on andy warhol and one on james dean...i hope to read them..get the noodle working...maybe.

and the dreams keep coming...just quickly...lots of people sleeping in one room...a baby biting my leg and waking me up...wasps...asian bar...um...thats all....

BUFFY BOT!!!!!!!!!

tired....thats all.....good bye to me....

gah...some stupid people were just outside my house....knocking and calling out for my father...as if IM gonna answer them..please...prolly some of my monkey uncles...but i dunno, they were in a truck or something...and the uncles usually walk.anyway, theyre now long gone...

i went clothing hunting today...and thats cos i hate clothing hunting...i always seem to not like anything...and price usually bugs me...im one of those crazy people that will spend 30 dollars for a cd, but clothing..well...clothing seems to figure less in my life...i wear what i please, and what i wear is usually mighty blah..my mighty blah high school clothing...so anyway, all the shirts that i got are solid color collar shirts...its too hard to find long sleeved shirts that i like, so ill just have to settle for using my sweater...now i can be at ease...well somewhat...atleast.

with this new found job i know that my health is gonna waver alot...im prolly gonna end up eating peanut butter for breakfast every day....and for lunch, its gonna be some vending junk food....and ill prolly have myself some soda.....and i wont have my real meal til i get home at 530...all i know is that im gonna be all out of sorts...sometimes i wish i just lead a normal life with normal eating habits..but NO....i care too much....or something like that...and then my sleeping habit...dunno about that, im prolly gonna go each day with 4-6 hours of sleep...and after i have my real meal, ill prolly take a nap...its gonna be zombie city.

i cant wait til a few weeks of work pass, and im somewhat confident of the job...its usually very hard for me to gain confidence in my ability...you start to be comfortable with yourself, then you get that one person that makes you doubt yourself...i worry too much.

now that ive gotten a job and a hair cut, ive had to start using gel again...i hate gel...its cruel...well to me atleast....i hate it..and then i stay all icky...and as soon as i get home, i have to wash it out...just to feel normal...so in conclusion, i hate it..blah

vegan supplies are mighty expensive....i think that ive chosen the wrong life style...not rich enough.

i wish that people would just say whats on their minds, and not just fade into the background and just quit talking....if somethings bugging them then they should say it...how hard is it to say.."i hate you...die die die"...or..."i dont want to talk to you anymore...die die die"...atleast then there would be closure...not just a game of wait and see....but thats just me...crazy ol me.

love....where are you?....im here..still...and always will be...here, waiting for you....please come find me...for then i will know that it is you...love...the one that i love.....

okeydokey....thats about it...need sleep...hope you do well today...and wear a smile for yourself....gnite...hughug kisskiss...no stab stab today....ta

2nd sugarcubes song..."motorcrash"...woo again...they should have done "delicious demon"..or "cat"...er...whatever...

my whole daily ritual has been disrupted...no more want ads...and ive been looking at them for like 3 years already...no more job website...so now im all out of sorts...

i burned my mouth with rice...hot rice...hot as in lava, not spicy....but my tongue was saved from a similar fate..

i hope that i dont hate myself tomorrow as much as i do today...

ok, thats all.....goodnite and thankyou.......buh...............bye.

oh....classic snl with matt broderick and the sugarcubes!!!! you know that we all love matt..and pre-pre-pre-pre-swan dress bjork. oh..they played "birthday"..i love that song...talk about wonky bands, this band had like the wonkiest relationship...ok well bjok was married to thor, the guitarist, but then they divorced and he married magga the keyboardist...the bass player bragi was married with the drummers(siggi) wifes twin sister, but then divorced her for einar, the trumpet/singer, they became the first openly gay married couple in pop music..woo, talk about complicated...this was all in the late 80s...anyway, theyre a shibby band...adore them.

earlier today i got sucked into a infomercial...it was an 80s music collection...oh memories...is it just me, or is the sax the 80s instrument..really, who can it be now?...anyway, woo 80s music...its just been a very 80ish day....::sigh::

i feel sick...all sort of dizzy and urg...

today ive felt very antimirror...antime....

cellphone...recently ive had 2 dreams that had a cell ...first, a few days ago, i dreamt that my cellphones battery had cracked open and it started to leak toxic waste...and yesterday dreamt that i was in school and this guy wanted to steal my cellphone...and my friend was there also, but he didnt want to stay, he was sleepy, he wanted to go home a sleep, but he gave me a pen cos i didnt have one....yes, nobody said that they had to make sense.

head hurts....

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