hmm...the song "sexy boy" is swirling in my head....yes, im bad. ;p, i cant be weepy and miserable at all hours...id go mad...er...its a brilliant song anyways...

ok, the nite calls for some sleep....the lonely sleep....maybe in dream land i will find happiness..somebody....love...

"...Don't you want to be free
Do you like girls or boys
It's confusing these days
But Moondust will cover you
Cover you..."...excerpt from the lovely "hallo spaceboy" by the lovely bowie..i like the pet shop boy remix of it..it too is brilliant.

ok, zat iz all....nite nite ive noone to bite...um...yes...

haha....el clon is so funny.oh i hate that alicinha....so glad yvete beat her up..*sigh*...im sad its gonna end already, i week left.....no more telenovela for me :( what will be next...too good.

the day was blah of course.....if i work i complain, if i dont work i complain, theres no pleasing me :/ ...got up, had rice again, listened to danielson famile...love those crazy christians..CRAZY!!!! watched some bowie again..im really getting into his 90's music...its the mid to late 80's stuff thats hard to endure...watched arthur, had my nap and more telly...listening to my favorite now.

um...playing with some paper clips...paper clips

the fear is still lingering...well, more like storming...its growing in the mind....but the mind is at war..at war with the fear and the joy...it knows not what i wants...urg.

the lab is gonna be hellish today, i know...all the people who havent had a chance to compute in 2 days...theyre gonna be all *roar*...boy i cant wait...eek.

"...........IF ITS NOT LOVE THEN ITS THE BOMB THAT WILL BRING US TOGETHER......"

well, duh...ok, well when i saw 30 seconds to mars on the carson daly show i was all like, well that singer looks just like jared leto...hello, it was him....again with the doofness...its the weather...thats my reply...i liked his hair

silence is cruel....silence brings about numberous scenarios in the mind...many maybes...the burn remains, though words can hurt, they allow the release of the heart...they let it end...but silence is cruel, it bores holes in the soul....it binds in threads...keeps one hanging by said threads....let the words cut me free...let the shackles be cast lest a bound being is what you desire...the silence is killing me...force the unwanted words unto me....be cruel with words, just make the silence be silenced...let these starving ears be nourised...tell, ask or demand...

hmm...sometimes things sound better in the mind than they do in writting, just tell that to my mind/heart...oh well, its not as if any of this means anything to anybody.

im better at being the vague one...i can go on and on, but if somebody else does it, im all like "huh"....i need to be hit with the obvious stick...

i hope anybody(if anybody) who reads my mind doest expect me to be amusing or entertaining...i dont need extra burdens....i am not warm and funny, i am cold and sterile...mechanical...ennuious....i am a broken record....i am me...

i am thought-less at the moment, as in out of thoughts.....

my body clock is out of wack, its not used to having thursdays and fridays off....oh well

help make the dream real......

and that ends this edition of sleepless ramblings

still coldish...brrrrrrrr..rrr

turkey day was blah of course....me alone mostly...woke up, had my rice and beans, watched the dog show..haha, yes thats how bored i was...played some final fantasy 4, hadnt in a long time...watched arthur!!!! a bit of oprah with harry potter kids, listened to some music, um...thats about it...blah

the strokes were on david letterman!!!! now, i hate david letterman, but the strokes!!!!! i actually caught them by accident...im such a doof, i thought that i was recording it, but i had it on the wrong channel!!! anyway, it was tre bueno....fab has short hair now, no more afro...hes still all wow of course..hehe...anyways, loved it!!!! but i dont have it on tape!!!!, but i did tape no doubt on the elvis special thinger...so thats good.

um...listening to pulp right now....and telly, pulp and telly...blah

its still cold...COLD!!!!

lets have a moment of silence for all our fallen turkey bretheren........................

i guess thats all

oh yeah, happy birthday to tim, our friend from down under.

its mighty cold, well, not mighty mighty cold, but its cold enough...ee

im doing a morrissey marathon, 4 albums in a row...yes

well, i went to bed around 130 then was up about 620...eek, work was boring of course and cold, being stuck in the room, mostly i was out talking with the lady that works at the periodicals, haha, yes ive become mighy lazy...its ok, im leaving there anyway...well, hopefully everything goes as planned that is...bleh :p

um...my hands are cold!!!!!

got to the college and filled out my financial aid form thinger and got home around 4 and had my dinner...yummy veggie burgers and chips...watched arthur!!! which i had seen already at 630 in the morning, but still!!! i remember a couple of years ago i used to stay up til 530 in the morning and watch arthur everyday...haha, yes i was a silly boy,.dont know why i would do that, i had already seen them all, but that was my purpose in life, watching arthur in the morning...now its really hard for me to stay up really late/early...blah

ive gots to go back to college on tuesday for advisement at 8 in the morning, eek, that means ive got to get up around 6, go there, get back, get ready for work, then not get home till around 840...im gonna be all zomboid that day...

tomorrow is thanksgiving, ive mixed feeling about that one...but my opinion matters not...ill be home whilst my family is at my grandmothers celebrating with their dead turkey and all...ill prolly have rice and beans and be here stewing in my cold room all alone :(

my hair is bugging me again....i want to lop it off, then i dont...i just dont know....eek.

and the wind did blow....brrr...it sure did get chilly...brrr again

work was ok i guess, really didnt do much of it...some talking and wondering around....saw three goody guys...that was good, i helped 1 with a computer, 1 with the microfilm and the other was just walking around lost...alot of old peoples, its the weather, it brings them out.

had some fruit slices and chips during lunch :)

talked with this girl during lab...i had to shake her hand and everything....shes attending the college that im going to...we were all about college, this and that...she was all oh and ah...im really bad at talking to unknown girls...:/...it was ok

buffy!!!!! not dead yet.

tomorrow is gonna go so slowwwww...5 hours in the glass cage..alone....yeeeeek.

drama at work...again, not mine though....

gotta get up early tomorrow!!!!! yikes!!!! 630....bleh

ok i guess im done...

maybe today...yes?

its hard...you try to not think about somebody, and thats all you do...think about that person...they become a fixure in your heart...heart and mind...i try not to, but my mind has a mind of its own....haha...oh how silly of me...looking for some comic relief...i guess thats my job, making myself laugh....

give me your time then leave us to die.

yay, new lyric...haha

of course the song "unloveable" is about me...duh...here are the best lines

"I know I'm unloveable
You don't have to tell me
message received
Loud and clear
I don't have much in my life
But take it - it's yours

I wear Black on the outside
because Black is how I feel on the inside

And if I seem a little strange
Well, that's because I am

But I know that you would like me
If only you could see me
If only you could meet me"

that last verse is definetly how i feel, i feel that if i was given the chance, then maybe, just maybe...but people just see a strange person and dont give me a chance....oh morrissey, you must have meet me in a past life for all your songs are about me...*sigh* im thinking that today im gonna wear black.

um...my rest day was ok i guess

listened to music and forced my mum to listen too :)....listened to david bowie, the smiths, tori amos, and placebo..i know.

i finally cleaned up my mess...put all my cds back in order, what a hassle...bleh...i try better this time not to leave them all aclutter.

read through some old music magazines...i do this every so often, its weird how you see things that you hadnt, you see bands that you didnt know back then but now do, rediscovery...good stuffs.

got to see arthur :)...havent watched it in a long tiiiiiiimmmmeeeee.

the little tail-less stray cat looks like a hyena...hes so cute...i feel bad for him cos hes alone...no home :(

went peppermint crazy...i was just absorbing them...i was all...wah!!! munch munch munch!!!!

today should be getting cool with the front later on...oh!!! and new buffy of course, thats always good.

im gonna have to sleep early cos ive got to get up early on wed :( early work...blah.

im off on thur and fri...dunno, means nothing to me.

blah blah yak yak.

i hate the fact that im a wait-er...i wait and wait ...i wait for nothing....nothing ever....one day somebody is gonna wait for me, when that does happen, i wont leave them waiting a long time....for now, i wait

holidays just serve to remind us of our shortcomings and miserys....bah humbug.

the other day i heard nina gordon on the radio, made me smile and frown at the same time

...and cut.

lesse...um...work was work...many peoples, very revolving door...1 in 1 out....um..help smelly lady...thats about it.

read(well looked at) the sunday paper, watched some bowie, took a short nap, and some telly and music...blah

i still think that thinking is bad..haha...just makes me feel old, sad, alone....im not ready, but it wont wait til i am..time wont wait....scary really.

save me.

do you think ive reached my expiration date?....im now the sour sour boy....nothing i say is fresh anymore...im gone.

i wish i had some good gifts...gift of voice, gift of charm, gift of mind...what am i stuck with?...gift of creepiness, gift of falling for the wrong people, gift of ennui.... :(

well, love me, love you, maybe....bye.

i <3 getting things in the mail, so i got my double agent records package...wah!!! finally got the my favorite full length and 2 comps with my fav songs in them...yes, i need to be wacked...;p

work was somewhat busy...had to kick out alot of people due to room limitations...the peppermints helped me continue...saw one interesting guy...he never seems to look at anybody..or just me...dunno....other than that it was fine....now, tomorrow i know its gonna be BUSY...sundays are always busy, all the student wait til the last moment to do their work, the lab will full quickly..*sigh* hopefully some a good batch of peoples...prolly not.

got home watched some buffy!!!, listened to some musics, made a cd for my sister, did a little cleaning....thats about it.

i HAVE TO clean my room, its such a junk yard.

i had a dream, but i cant remember it much.. oh well

the angie hart song "blue" from buffy is tre excellent....i never really liked frente, but this song is truly great.

i cant take this loneliness and uncertainty any longer, i want to be in college already...i hate it hear, its a slow death..i wanna be where the people are...but anyway.

before bed last nite i was being such a corn...know how sad i am?, i pretended that my pillow was "somebody" and talked to it, let it know that all would be fine...yes i know, im an idiot...just caused me to cry....hahaha...i need to be hit with the reality stick.

bright eyes requires more research...i will know of connor oberst....i will know the music...maybe...ha

ok, i think ive done enough damage for now....ta....nite....la

i think all the crazies go to the library...and some work there ;p

the radio was nice today, gave me both the strokes and daft punk..wah

a peppermint high will help me through today...today is lab day....maybe today.

i feel like eating something, but dunno what...maybe cake, havent had cake in a long long time....let them eat cake...haha...oh...dunno, im all bubbly right now...

the time is getting closer!!!!!

....watching some gymnastics on the telly...thats got me somewhat calm....ooh...watch them go...yum..i mean..um..yum...haha. ;p and now the women come on.

work was work and thats about it...um..listened to carmina burana, smashing pumpkins, tori amos, and depeche mode *sigh*...other than that, it was a plain day.

all sorts of cell phone craziness....this and that..anyway, ive got a new number now...i hadnt even learned the other number yet, oh well...blah

watched some david bowie goodness...well, only watched disk 1...today ill watch disk 2, i dont need to overdose.

gah, i hate my internet, it keeps disconnecting like a gazillion times...eeee

the moon looked lovely....so lovely.

maybe today.

gah...its not good, not good at all, after being cured it seems that ive gotten a mild case of the twitchy eye...again. *sigh*

as i was saying, work was blah....nothing interesting, nobody interesting...i checked out a book, hopefully ill actually read this one...everything else was blah.

.....sometimes i think i say too much....maybe i dont talk alot, but i say alot...huh...

ok, im at a loss of words........bzzz

well, i was in my mood, then the mail came and i got my copy of the best of bowie double dvd...4+ hours of bowie goodness...wah!!! so that cheered my mood somewhat.

wah!!!, other than that the day was blah.

gah, i had to manually type in the archived months of oct and nov...i had to trick it....to quote anya "the computer is a moron"...i think thats what she said...anyway.

lose yourself in the tranquility of the darkness, the night...blah blah

just listening to moenia, aka mexicos depeche mode....muy good....id listen to depeche mode right now, but id just rather not...not for now...best i dont....why??..oh cos im a silly boy.

whilst in the archival glass cage i was listening to the strokes and decided that the song "hard to expain" was my current happy song..if i was happy that is...its the song that would be playing in the background if i was out running around, having fun..spinning, jumping...its all wah!!!, but of course being that its me...it also has the effect of making me feel sad cos its the happy song and im not...so its the bitter sweet song...meow

is it better to keep people or dispose of them and just aquire new ones....i gave the past my heart and it just rolled its eyes...i dont see anything for me in the past...i dont think i can embrace the past until i embrace the present....

we'll always have deep-fried cornmeal covered weiners....its ours and ours only...nice : )

im obviously sleep deprived....gnite.

ok, i was feeling somewhat sadish but now theyre playing daft punk "one more time" on the radio, and thats making me somewhat cheerful...somewhat...only somewhat.

"Last night I dreamt
That somebody loved me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm

Last night I felt
Real arms around me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm

So, tell me how long
Before the last one ?
And tell me how long
Before the right one ?

The story is old - I KNOW
But it goes on
The story is old - I KNOW
But it goes on

Oh, GOES ON
And on
Oh, goes on
And on" "Last night I dreamt" - the smiths

yes, this song again...its true again....my mind is so cruel to me, giving me dreams full of hope and love...evil brain....it was so real....then you wake up and it sets in...blah.

whilst bathing i starting singing "heroes" ...of course it made me sad and made me cry....thats just me at the moment..unstable....i was singing the dolphin line..

"...I
I wish you could swim
Like the dolphins
the dolphins can swim
Though nothing
Nothing will keep us together
We can beat them
Forever and ever
Oh, we can be heroes
Just for one day.

...We can be us
Just for one day"

except that i changed the words swim with sing...haha...i wish i could sing like a dolphin...eek, yes, thats weird..anyway.


you can tell when im all emotionally crazy...my mind works overtime looking for the appropriate lyric for my situation...i just start spewing them out like a pez dispenser....a crazy wacky pez dispenser.

*sigh*

sometimes i start to think that my self imposed social exile is justified...seems about right.

seems everyday at work i see them....in twos, everybody seems to travel in twos....friends, lovers....everybody....not me...i am one...always one....ive no lover...ive no best friend...ive no friend....i travel alone...its so funny....you either have to laugh or cry, sometimes both, but i try to choose laughter....you just have to, otherwise you go crazy...you can come back once, but im pretty sure the second times is much harder.

"...I still don't belong
To anyone - I am mine
...I am falling
With no-one to catch me
I am falling
And there's still
No-one to catch me ..."

lyrics from the wonderful "i am hated for loving" by morrissey of course.

ok, enough foolishness for now....ive made myself a fool long enough...for now at least.

the moon is cruel...the moon is sad...it feels it has the right to bring us all down....the moon is alone, it wishes us to be so too...the moon is cruel.

emotional outburst...no, its not a sudden thing...just the other day i was watching a movie on the telly and it made me cry....dunno why, made me start thinking about my life and i just couldnt handle it. i couldnt decide what i was....where i fit in...was i this or was i that or was i just nothing...dunno, it was just me being odd. nothing new. i really dont know what im doing...i should be stopped...im going about life all wrong...im not capable of thinking for myself, making my own decisions...dunno....dunno...dunno...

gah, my room is such a pig pen...really bad...maybe ill clean it when i get home form work today...im gonna miss my room is i go.

well, my spanish know how was tested again at work..eee...

today i start in the archives again...so its gonna be half archives and half lab again....you know how much i hate the lab...well, im gonna miss it...haha....*sigh*

oh anya....love ya.

about my last post, it may seem weird and all, but its just how i felt at the moment, it was a spurt of the moment thing....these are real feelings people...i try not to censor..well not too much at least...so, its all true to the moment...now its over....blah...hopefully :)

ok, a few this girl came in and i scanned her card and it said that she was asian, i thought that it was a mistake cos she doesnt look and her name isnt asianish....so i ask her and shes all like yes, boy am i left all idiotish...but, i was just trying to see if it was a mistake, guess not...eee, ok, enough on my foolishness.

crash and burn....*CRASH*

ah......ok, im totally out of it right now....like not in a good way.

i was all happy and fine, well not HAPPY and FINE, but just good.....signing people in, listening to pj harvey dry demos...anyway, then i check my email as i do each day.....then i see that i have an email from my friend....and you know me, gallons of happiness whenever i get a real piece of email.....so i read it not knowing what to expect cos you know my impetuousness...so i read it and it makes me happy/sad....well more sad that anything cos thats the type of person i am....i feel that sometimes knowing nothing about somebodies life is better than knowing...knowing just puts real thoughts in your head as opposed to the fake madeup ones...i dunno, im just stupid and dont know how to handle anything...sad and stupid...i always try to make myself think that im years removed from my sadness, but its always finds a crack and sneaks right back in....well not really, it doesnt have to sneak in, its already hiding in the shadows...looking for the right time to come out....ANYWAY, this is all very stupid....my thoughts i mean......i think my little "wanna cry" moment is over.....good, thats all i need here in the lab....

im gonna try to think about other things, change my mindset, evade the sadness....lalala

*breaths in and out* ok, im fine.....really.. :( :)

yes, i need to be slapped with a fish....see, my humour is still in place...sure it needs some tweaking but for me its fine....ok, im fine.

sometimes you have something to say, but then you let some time pass and then it doesnt seem so important...the moment is gone...it was then, not now...thrill is gone...blah

im all pj harvey right now...ive listened to her cd 3 times through already...wah

people still confuse me.

i hope today is a good day at work, sunday was all raining boys..a really odd day.....dunno how today will be....good hopefully...i tire of complaining.

its getting closer...wah.

well, the archive feature of my blog never regained its sanity so its all gone south, therefore ive gotten a new addy to continue as soon as the new month begins...that is if im still around...til then i will try to deal...blah....tata

hair today odd tomorrow...or something like that...maybe.

dreams....i havent posted my dreams in a long time...well, last night i had some soo-so dereams...ok in one i worked in some food place and i had to be cooking some lobsters, but it was weird, you had to flip the lobster and stab it with a fork....yuck....in another i worked in some store and we had to put out the christmas merch...yeah, not that exciting...in another i dreamt about gwen and no doubt, i was seeing a new music video and she had black hair...its weird how sometimes you dream a song that doesnt even exist..i was hearing the song, but its not even a song ive ever heard...wah.

my funny stray cat...shes so funny!!!! this morning when my dad was talking to my mum, well there he was with the door open and she ran in the house and was all running around and my mom had to chase her out....then, my dad was gonna take some stuff in his car, so he opened both doors..anyway, the cat jumped in the car...of course he started yelling and the cat flew out....the cat is just too great...haha.

.....meep

lesse.....um....im listening to lunachicks!!!!!!!!!!!! wah......and um...well you know, babysitting the masses....and its mega cold..anyway

lets warp back to yesterday...eek. ok well it started off as a blah blah day....then lunch, you know me, wondering around the books, looking for a look anyway, there were these brats..um 4 kids about 10-12 or so anyways, they were just being all evil so the woman at the reference desk asked them to leave, so you know how evil this corn children can be so, they leave then theyre outside, right outside the reference area and theyre there throwing her the finger....one of them went right up to the glass and was staring in for about 5 min. yikes!!!!!!!! so, i couldve been killed!!!!!!!! mobbed by a school gang.so that was my excitement in the blah day...then later on the lab filled with a bunch of high school guys...i had to be translating stuff for them since they knew very little english, it was like little mexico in here, i had to spell society, australians, and tortilla....yes, tortilla, its cos he didnt know the translation of tortilla, so i told him, tortilla es tortilla, then he wanted to know what res was and i was all like um....cow?...in his span/eng dictionary it said beast and i was all like um...beast es bestia(sp?) haha..anyway, im really stretching my spanish knowledge...eek. and then this little kid, another corn child decided that he didnt need a library card to use the computer, he just starts it up like nothing. *sigh* then his little friend decides to put a dragon ball z pic as the wallpaper on the comp....now, i cant remove it cos i dont have that kind of access, so i just replaced the pic with a little yahoo logo....but then they all eventually left...blah. it was mighty cold as it is now...i think the cold was affecting my brain or something cos i was extra bubbly...all giggly.....i was silly goose as opposed to gloomy gus...not good.....not good at all...anyways, that was my yesterday.

theres still more things that i need to buy!!!!! well music things, even though ive already bought alot this month.....i still need the new black tape for a blue girl, and the cranberries dvd, i already preordered the best of david bowie dvd and the my favorite cd...yikes, this isnt good.

college college college....da da da da da da.....well, you get the picture....bah.

just here being loggish. finished looking at the current issue of a.p. magazine.it gave the new sigur ros album a 10 out of 10!!!!!!!!! wah tre cool. the back cover has a pic of chester bennington!!!!!! who you might remember i obsessed about a few weeks ago......his voice!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway...also, theres a pic of brody armstrong!!!...i think my foots asleep :/

my current fav song is my favorites version of david bowies "modern love". ive gone my favorite crazy and ordered all their musics...i was sleepy, didnt know what i was doing..oh well.

buffy was interesting to say the least....creepy, atmospheric, weird....i totally think its preparing to end this season....the events...everything.....needs further study....but still thick gravy good.

sometimes i think im a bad person just like the rest...being attracted to looks and all...yesterday during my lunch i helped this guy...no!!!! its not a good thing, i just helped him cos he was groovy..not good...on a brigher note, i helped a girl the other day just to help her..so maybe that cancels out the other thing. *sigh* also, my hair, i think that deep down inside i changed it, not cos i want to be different or cos i was bored, but cos i want people to notice me...maybe ask, talk...yes, im a mighty bad person who needs to be hit with a live shark...ok, a baby live shark ;p

ok, ill continue to listen to my favorite and babysit.....ta.

the double edged swordness of the jolly rancher.......ok well we know that theyre groovy in the mouth and taste mighty good, however....if not eaten in the alotted time of about 2 weeks(or less) they get all sticky and grotty......thats not gonna stop me from eating them, but well.....um..that was my point..... ;P

so far 1st day of the new golden grey haired me is going smoothly.....with this i will try and begin a new day with a new friendlier me....more hi's less "get away from me grotty person i dont want to help you" thoughts...well see how this progresses.

um....my favorite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, thats all.

visited the college today...mega cool. starts jan 13th....the reality that ill be going is at about 80% probability. wah.

hair!!!! no comment now, too much too much.

lets see how work goes today....hopefully nothing too evil

enough....blah

wooha i finally got to see the special on pbs..the one with ewan mcgregor and the polar bears...it was tre bueno....if anybody remembers, when it first came out i was all psyched cos i was gonna see it, then the tv went evil and the channel went of air....i didnt get to see it!!! now today whilst channel surfing i saw that they were showing it and got to see it!!!!! i was smiling through the whole thing. i dont know which was more cute ewan or the polar bears....made me happy for a short while..nothing else mattered just the bears and ewan...and he sang!!!!! ok, enough of that...you get the point

work work work....work continued to be hella hot...couldnt stay in the lab..no way..too hot. spent most of my time walking around, looking for deviants...talking with the old lady...i like her, she doesnt think im weird or crazy or anything..shes 75 and i dont scare her.

um...um.......um

its hot in here....in the lab!!!!!!! hahahahahaha.........i hope the people are suffering.....hahahaha.....yes, im being evil >:)

stupid people fanning themselves with their hands....if theyre hot then they can leave for all i care..hahahaha...ill suffer if it means that theyre suffering too

ok, thats me being mighty evil.

ok, i just got here and its already hellish....this whole family just barged in here and took ownership of 4 computers..ran they did...not a nice family either...children of the corn....AH!!!!!! and then the couple and porn man....*sigh* just 1 computer left....itll probably go to some evil person too. its final, i hate it here...i want out.....

ok, yep evil person took the computer...its nonenglish speaking guy who likes to look at girls on the net :/

again i say it....AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

got some new musics yesterday!!!! that was good. 2 my bloody valentine cds...i just had to get them cos they were on sale..about 8.50 each....i had been neglecting getting them but now theyre mine...wah...whats better than scottish shoegazer?...nothing of course.

haha...started looking through a book called "how to meet people and make friends" stupid i know, but every little bit helps...yall know i need lots and lots of help :/ anyway, dumb

works been works been work....nothing really great...nobody really great....friday i saw my teacher from college...he was at the meeting that i was at....we talked....giggled through the presentation..bad influence he was...but it was good...um...other than that there havent been any people of interest, just grotty regulars and other such blah blahs...ill have to settle for the beast master on the telly :\

i am so ready to change my hair color...

i havent been too sad or anything, but that just cos i havent been thinking about it....my mind has been blank, but thats good i guess.

guys = instant battiness...eek

ok, me thinks thats all...meow.

maybe today.

um...the work day was blahish....actually did work of sorts...same peoples...but there was tall guy with weird last name...thats about it.

did some complaining of course.

haha...sabrina is funny.

despite everything im inclinded to still have the "maybe tomorrow" attitude....i wont give in...atleast until next time.

i feel like eating some fries....FRIES!!!!!

ok, done

i swear that the walls have ears at the library...really, nothing is sacred there....rah

they were everywhere....those boyos were...but, ill try not to dwell on that...id go crazy

buffy was mega good...so funny, really..i was all laughish....buckets of goodness...love it!!!!

sometimes i dont know what mood im in...whilst in the lab i went from fiona apple, to sigur ros, to ravi shankar, to sex pistols...yes

um....im pretty much wordless, so thats it...blah

ok, just got my schedule for the next 2 weeks and dont worry, ive already protested and bitched and moaned and such.....*sigh*

seems im stuck for 30 hours again in the lab....this cant be good for my health.....and then all the times are all crunked up..theyre not right!!!!!!! all different....lunch at 3, whats that!!!! ok, im done

and now the french have invaded the lab....2 elderly french folk....huh

i was telling a coworker that it smelled funky in the lab so she went ahead and spritzed my area with some air thinger whilst i was out patrolling....people just looked at her...funny.........funk be gone.

well im ready to start my work week, leave it to me to have his work week start on a tuesday.....*sigh*

im still sick of course, it wouldnt be the same if i wasnt, i wouldnt be able to complain...ee

listening to fiona apple!!!!!!

waiting for the crowd to bum rush in.....only 3 peoples so far

im gonna TRY to ignore any boyos....try being the key word.

well, more later....if i feel up to it atleast.

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of course the work day had to start with drama....chaos.again.

well, the girl that was supposed to be in the periodicals called in sick, so i had to be there for a few whilst the old lady got here, she was supposed to be in the nonfic, but now shes gonna be over there which means that ive gots to go checking up on her and the non fic area again, just like yesterday....yikes.oh yeah, whilst over at the periodicals i was attacked by fleas....*sigh* so early and im being attacked already.

currently listening to sex pistols, been a while

watched tori on the morning show, just her and her piano this time...no back up, was good.

um....im still sick(big shocker huh) and thats about it.

my hair is all crispy!!!! its the gel, well i should know better than using tub-o-gel....but it gets the job done and doesnt flake...ill endure the crispty crunchity hair...im gonna let my hair grow so that i can get a crazy cut later on..crazzzzy cut.

watching the latin mtv music awards....funny watching nonspanish speakers attempt to speak spanish..haha....um...music is good, shakira was going doing a good ol spanish song...she should stick to that, her engish songs though catchy leave much to be desired, but her spanish songs are gems...this is putting me back into rock en espanol mode...i need some cds...

gah, that gel is like glued to my hair, shampoo dont work...ow.

wah, iggy pop speaking spanish...too good....system of a down performing...good too

im gonna getcha good....haaha....that was so sad...ill go now

im still trying to familiarize myself with the new albums...hard thing to do when each album is over 70 min long..the tori album is 18 songs and clocks in at 74+, the sigur ros album is 8 songs and clocks in at 71+...eek. its ok, just takes time...ive got time.

im still sick :(

naps own me!....i was watching tv, then i decided to listen to some sigur ros...well, it made me teary so i turned to tv off so that i could wallow in the darkness anyway, one thing led to another and then...snoozzzzzzzze....i just cant escape the nap.

IM SICK!!!!!

arent paper clips groovy, theyre like the innocent cousin of the safty pin...well, kind of....hmm

it feels like rain....still

i seem to be lacking in deep thoughts

calm chaos in the vicinity....gloomy calm.....chaotic in the other section...the chaos is spreading to me....im having to go review the other 2 sections cos they stuck on old lady over there and she really doesnt know what shes doing...im here im there im somewhere.

its a gloom friday with a slight lingering taste of robitussin

man/girl just walked in..yikes....shes scary!!!!!!!

yesterday was horrible here..well not really bad, but my sickness was making it icky.....i wanted to leap out of myself.....the silence, and the silence was too much to handle...skeleten crew was all that was.....only about 10 people in the whole library.....all us no lives.

lesse......right now i have man/girl, homeless boy, and the homeless family(only 3 of them).....*sigh* i should be a social worker or something......

....fall in love with me.....somebody....

AHHH!!!! tre bien....ok, well the flaming lips were on conan, and as we all know, well maybe not, but i know...steve burns is in cahoots with the flaming lips..anyway, they were playing a shibby song and there were alot of extras in the back in costumes, so i wonder..."is steve in one of those" then when they finish they remove their heads and yes!!!! steve burns was the blue monster thinger!!!! well, i think it was...then after the commerical brake the end credits, they show them again and it was him!!!! he was all steveish with his guitar...it was him!!!! ok, thats enough of that...wah!!!..steve...release your album already..