*sigh* what a life.

the highlight of my day is gonna have been watching captain planet at around 4 something in the morning...*sigh* sad sad

well im going home...escape all this...be back sunday i guess

who will love the poor brown banana?

ok ok chitose hajime is awesome...first she does "sweet jane" now i hear her doing "birthday" from the sugarcubes...interesting fact though...sugarcubes also did a cover of "sweet jane"...huh...i guess chitose is feeling bjorky... ;)

oh my gosh...i was listening to jrock(of course) and then there it came....a jrock version of "sweet jane"...wah!!!! was way interesting...wouldnt mind having it.

nothing nothing nothing

twas street bound most of the day 8+ hours...but twas ok since i was with friends...yay

ate...lots and lots of salad and bread..wah!!! and chocomints double wah!!!

went malling twice over and then targeting....out of my whole trip i gots 2 cds for 10 dollars...meep

bit tired...should sleep but might watch dvds..

hugs are nice...even when theyre stranglish :)

i smiled.

how can anybody not like qawwali?

ha!!!! well supposedly morrissey has FINALLY been signed...new record soon soon soon? yes please.

ive been jrocking out again...woo

4 phone convos....boy do i feel special

im doing better...well somewhat atleast...better than i was

twas a nice day...nice thundery little sun...yums

naps are increasing...each day is like one giant nap...i am cat like

i hate writing when ive nothing to write

saying of the moment...go take a plath bath...haha

iron giant :' )

....

grr...yes

today ive been innundating myself in jrock...the jrock has hit my head...dizzy.

ive been to junky lately...todays supper was cornnuts, bag of popcorn, and a coke...and banana :)

its official, im a hermit...crazzy ol hermit.

whats with celine dions new hair...yikes

tomorrow im supposed to mayhaps go to coffee shop again...smoothie time

within this whole day ive run the gamut of emotions...sadness, disgust, conviction, pride, aimlessness...right now, dont quite know where im at...limbo

maybe its nap time again....3rd one....

meow.

just ate a nice healthy supper of crunchy peanut butter and honey bears...and cornnuts.....ive just been all with the food lately

been extra lonely lately...sad....sad and lonely

bjorks pagan poetry video really is beautiful...if you can look past the whole bare breastedness of it....its beautiful and sad...the vid, not her breastsss... :)

theres just a whole lotta nothing to do around here...maybe i should just take another nap....another.

i get so tempted to call people that i shouldnt...for my own good...sometimes it seems the only thing to do.

no pearls being spewed from this swine....

listening to christian death "the angels"(laibach mix)...oh rozz.

nothing to see....nothing to do....nobody to be...nobody to be for

well...well....its been blah..been here since yesterday..blah.....more blahs later

well me go homes todays...prolly be back friday....meh

tomorrow is everybodies fav misanthropic asexuals birthday... morrissey!!!!!!! uber wah!!!!! :)

um...zats about it.

AHHH!!!!! just spent most of the noontime watching the last 5 episodes of buffy!!! AHH!!!! as it was nearing the very last eppys i didnt think much...some blahs and some more blahs...then the last half of the last eppy....*cries* it was so emotional....yes, im a doof for getting all weepy, but it is buffy mind you....id have to say it ended pretty well, except for the deaths.....having seen all of season 7 i have to say that im in love with andrew <3, hes so cute and funny...hes the male anya who you know i love *cries*.

ok, i'll say what happened..dont read if you dont want to know!!!!

anya gets stabbed to death and her body is buried along with all of sunnydale.....spike pretty much saves the day, evaporates into dust and takes all of the badies and the town with him...buffy finally says that she loves him..he knows better. willow does the magics and makes all the prospective slayers into full blown slayers...now buffy isnt the chosen one...shes only one of them...she can now live a normal life. the end.....though i am mighty disappointed that tara NEVER came back....grrr. and amy didnt get punished for cursing willow...and joyce never came out again....oh well...its over.

*sigh* im pretty much wiped out after all that emotion and trauma...nap time mayhaps.

twas odd...well not really.

got up..spoke to friend on phone....then another friend arrived whilst i was on phone...hung out for a bit...musics mostly.

he left, i did some sprucing of the place....then thats about it...grr.

im tired....didnt get to nap....picked up my ceramic stuff in the morning, then i helped a friend move his stuffs to another apartment, then i hung out with some friends at coffee shop.

thursday i watched the movie "bend it like beckham"..i liked it...really cute.

then went to chinese food place and ate oodles of chinese food goodness :)

then to the coffe shop we went..had fun, 7 hours of fun.

dunno whats up with today...rest day...yay...ok, thats all.

theres been a nice moon the past days....*sigh*

um...tired...been mighty tired as of late...dunno why, i really have no reason to be tired...meh

yesterday did nothing but hang...was ok i guess..

today i went to ceramics and we had our critique...i guess it went well. then i did some more not studying and finally i was off to take my only final exam...i hate essays!!! grr.

so school is basically over...i just need to pick up my drawings on thursday and my ceramics on friday..dunno whats next...nothing.

i have nothing tomorrow, ill prolly just stew here in my room..oh well.

mrrrrrp...well lesse..um...went home sat....ate FOOD...me and mum had our weekly buffy watchings...napped...thats about it.

i got to see julee cruise on the classic eppy of snl...oh julee.

got up sun...had lunch, gave mum best wishes and a hug...went to best buy and got oodles of blank cds..wah!!!

got here, went to ceramics and fixed my stuffs...was there til about late...didnt get back here til about 830 something...but mostly i was hanging out...

burned some cds for friends...talked to 2 friends on phone...and chatted...thats about it....nothing much today...should study for exam on tuesday...but...grr...so ill prolly just be chilling with my drama inducing friends.

nite.

well, ill be leaving in a couple of hours...get to have my tater salad :) get to see mah cat...i guess my family will be there.

grr...roommates!!!! last nite, my ruckus causing roommate left such a mess in the kitchen...now theres oodles of ants..i dont even wanna deal...i have to...theres ANTS!!!! oodles of ants!!!! plus, this morning there he was vomiting...grrr. he shouldve held it in til i left.

it seem freshish outside..mew

ok, i guess thats that...til tomorrow then...if im up to it. haha

auf

well...these past few days have been trying to say the least...i guess its my fault.. people i choose. mayhaps ive been spending a bit too much time with those peoples

yesterday i went to an art show thinger here at school...twas nice...a bit too many people..crowded...free food, though not much of which i could eat...drank too much punch? about 6 glasses

all my ceramic stuffs are done, now ive just got to pretty them up for display by monday..i guess i might study a bit for my exam on tue...

today there was no classes, but i decided to stay and chill...hang with mah friends...we mostly hung here in my room, listening to musics, being silly. then we rented a dig cam from the library and took silly pics :)....it was an ok day...drank too much coke..grr.

when i leave ive gots to buy some more blank cds!!!!! mayhapes some hairdye and stuff...i might stay the weekend since my roommates might be gone cos its the end on thursday...maybe.

right now my roommate is being all ruckus with all his pals watching the basketball game in the living room...grr.

people are weird :)

ta.

grr...tired as always...meh.

got dirty in ceramics...cleaning the stupid room..got dirty...the heat...was hot...grr

had a coke for lunch..did some talking...went to philosophy without having studied for the quiz of course...i managed to pass...score for me!!!! then got some of my cds back...and pretty much hung with the crowd til 5 something or so...they wanted to steal my sweater...its mine, not theirs...yes..haha... and of course the wonderful drama that ive become tangled in...i live in one giant drama space warp or something

i should be a bit less stressy since classes are over...one last exam and freedom...til next time that is...then i can start stressing all over again...about class about boys about food...

sleep sleep sleep...all you need is sleep.

tired again...grr...im the hummingbird, from person to person i go..no ally have i...im loyal to all and to noone...and it does take its toll on me.

took a quiz in spanish class today...grr, evil class..didnt learn much...well, i should know spanish after all, but still...dont have to take the final atleast...no final in drawing either...the only final i have to worry about is the philosophy final, gonna be essays..blah. i should be studying for my philosophy quiz today...

my roommates made me watch girrlsgonewildd today...*shudders* twas mighty evil. the images mighty be burned into my corneas...atleast i did get my depeche mode dvd back...finally after like 3 months...

i got 4 hellos whilst walking down the "halls" if you will...i felt special...specially when the uber cute philippine guy smiled and said hi to me...i prolly swooned a bit too much...*sigh*.

the weather down here is just vulgerly hot..evil!!! and its not even summer yet..gah

i mightve become addicted to softdrinks..maybe...probably...yes, i am...

today is my friends birthday!!!!! mighty happy birthday mikey!!!!!!

its an odd instance...im sorta ok...im good...im at peace for now..

im tired...grr....ill write morrow...tired!!!!

haha...i totally forgot...duh...april 16th was my 1 year blogging anniversary...wah..1 whole year of bitching...how time flies when youre not having fun...meh..anyway, yay for me.

well im back..well...where to start...i feel a flash back sequence starting...*flash backy type music*

*thursday*
ok...got up early and went to work on my ceramics project..then to spanish class i went...pretty blah did a load of nothing...went to the asian club...sat and listened to the asians...watched them eat pizza....went to drawing...did my thing...got thirsty so i got a drink, some rip off pixie sticks and some red hot cornnuts..rescued the funny turkish woman...she couldnt unlock the bike lock so i helped her...shes so funny....back to class...did some drawing..finished...went out to hang...went with 2 friends to her house...she lives close by...watched some white stripes performances and thats about it...came back cos he had to go home....went to benches and hung out with more peoples...got burned by a cigarette by accident..grrr...*its about 5 at this time*...hung somemore....we overdosed ourselves on the pixies...talked about suicide methods...ate the cornnuts...listened to depressing musics....they bugged peoples for cigarettes...around 7 they were gonna sell some of their school books for some cig money...told them i wouldnt go that i had stuffs to do...she said that they would drop me off...so after driving around...singing to u2...putting 2 dollars of gas....the guy bought a pack and decided to share with the 2 girlies...they decided to hang out at his apartment....its around 8...havent had lunch/supper...get there and its weird that i ran into a girl from my class...her boyfriend was the roommate of the guy that we were with....talk a bit, listen to musics, watch the movie "rules of attraction".....around 10...keep getting calls from my friend..i guess i can call him that...the computer guy...about 6 or so missed calls, i didnt want to answer in front of them all..too loud...finally around 11 something i get a ride from another guy that had arrived there...the girls stayed there chilling....get back around 1115...call him...he says that he had been on his way, but had turned back...so he says that he still wants to do something, so i tell him "sure"..so he heads back over here....and if you know me, you know that im like the horriblest at directions, and he didnt know this area...so...he starts his 1 hour trek to a place he doesnt know....i bathe fast cos i smelled like smoke and all..drank a coke and had a granola...yes, im tired by this time, but i woulnt say no...so i do that..then i get a call that hes near, to give him directions to the college, hahaha...so i do my best, he gets lost...i tell him to go to the convenience store for directions...he gets them and finally is on his way...i tell him the rest of the way on the cell...when i get on he shakes my hand and says that hes gonna kill me...haha....so then he asks about places we can go to..im all like...."uuuhhuhhh"..yes, its already late...so he knows a friend that knows the area well and calls him and asks him...so his friend tells him of this club...we go hunting for it...when we get there its closed...haha...so we just stop at some random mexican restaurant thats open 24/7....its about 1230 already...i tell him im not hungry but insists, offers to pay..so i get my regular fries and he get his plate...not may people, but the ones that do arrive mostly stare at us, i guess theyve never seen to guys having late late supper together.....so we eat and talk and talk....hadnt seen him in about 9 months..since my library days...so we finish about 230...find our way back...yes, find would be the word...before we enter the college we witness a cat get hit by a truck...of course that causes me much grief..anyway...he says that even though he had expected a clubbing kind of fun, he had fun none the less...drive to the front shake hands and hug...i walk to my apartment in hopes that my roommates hadnt locked me out...sucess..no lock...come in and finally rest after such a long day...once inside i realize that i hadnt thanked him for the food so i call him and tell him...hes all like "no problem" then he says that now that ive called i cant hang up cos he doesnt want to drive back all alone...so we end up talking on his journey back home...he doesnt let me hang up til hes safely inside his house...when we hang up 1 hour later its already 4. all in all it did go well, not one unpleasant moment between us...a first....finally i get to sleep only to wake up 5 hours later....its ok though....so i see the girls the next day and call them the abductresses..haha...*sigh*.... zee end. *flash back to the present*

the weekend was blah as always...sleep eat eat eat eat music telly....had much thoughts...basic life changing thoughts...blah.

got a call today from a certain somebody guy...*sigh*..somepeople just dont get it....im not depressed enough to be used...good thing too...he needs to learn that this well is dry...but as you know...im not the avoiding type...i wont let them die...meh...im not gonna let him get it...do it...etc.

but i do need someone...just not that one...someone....

ok, so ends this expanded edition of pathetico theater.

a quick update...

well today i was blah...people make me that way..specially certain people..they never learn..open my eyes to certain extent...i do realize that i am alone...all very blah...*sigh*

well thats all for now, next time(prolly sunday) i'll write about yesterdays adventures.

ta

meoh...yesterday was just too much...no time to update now...maybe later if time or til sunday when i get back...meoh.