its nice and rainy out...nice

nothing new here or there...maybe somewhere.

i think its nap time.

ricky martin is a stupid head with stupid hair...yes

nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing....nothing to do but wait for something to do.

in 12 hours ill be "home"

oh my gosh, im so paranoid about taking sculpture class, im gonna way burn myself with torches and hot metal stuffs...eek!!!

about 5 more days of class or so before the next session....mayhaps groovy new peoples...hopefully :)

mashed potatoes....potafingers....mashed

pj harvey gives us nice nightmares.

wont you be my neighbor?

well, it seems ive slowed down significantly....writting less and less and less and....

life has become a dream...not a good dream, not a nightmare, just a haze....a hazy dream...i float

grr..this morning i was awoken by grotty tejano musics by one of my roommates, at first i heard the heavy bass...then later i couldnt distinguish if i had actually heard it or if it too was part of my dream....twas real

the new coldplay video is soooo sad...made me want to cry, prolly just the first view...still might depress me depending on the mood im in...its pretty sad.

listening to the pumpkins...been a long while...poor pumpkins.

why is love so hard to find...well, besides having to go look for it...where is it?

i hate people, they only care about themselves.

i need to move.

dunno, been too lazy today...i didnt go to bed really late or anything...long classsss then a nap...still groggy

honey flavored grahams + orange juice = yuck ;p

nothing much happening on the life front....oh well.

well i guess im back..so it seems i am...

yay!!! got the bjork and sigur ros dvds....i <3 icelandic musics and visuals...now..i need to get a mum cd...mummmmmmm.

i guess i should start reading...grr reading...

maybe tomorrow...maybe....????????

*sigh* i guess its time to head on home...home of the food and food and more such frivalties.

im gonna read read if it kills me....which wouldnt be too bad.

having pennies thrown at your window isnt that bad...im worth 4 cents.

well, thats that. ta.

well, i had started my paper when i realized that it was something unusable..stupid time period...so anyway, it was already 11 something...got a call, talked to my friend for a bit, mostly about things that i wished i could be eating...gave in and ate some ritz and grahms and another coke(#3)...started my paper again about 1 and quit working about 440 or something, important thing is that i almost finished...a little less than a page to do :). im a bit tired now....my first class wasnt gonna meet today, so i get to rest that and maybe work a little on the paper, i dont want to have to be doing it on monday, i do know that once i finish im gonna have alot of reading to do hundreds of pages...grr.

"cygnet committee" is such a great song...who cares that its 9 and half min log...you cant go wrong with bowie.

the time is getting closer...time to be a ghost

oh my gosh...today was sooooo blah...the class' were soooo long i was ready to gouge my eyes out and be all like *AHHH!!! MY EYES ARE GOUGED OUT!!!*....but anyway....i thought that i was gonna nap, but id better start on my paper instead of sleeping...i can go without.

i just had a granola and 2 cokes....sure i might fall over and die later, but meh

yesterday was about the same...yes when one thought my life couldnt get blaher..it has.

yesterday was mums bday...the rest of the day was just there..today has been pretty much gallons of blahs school this school that.

watch out for monkey pox she said...what a phone message...

and i guess thats the most exciting thing of the day...monkey pox phone message..

emails make me feel special *:)*

ok, gnite...

*sigh* mmmmback.

the excitement of the day was the ride over here in the tormentuous weather...twas all like *YIKES*!!! but anyway.

my hounds of love are too anemic...cmon hounds take your vitamins....get that man.

todays supper consisted of pringle sandwiches...and coke.

hey monie...so funny....haha

ok im done

almost time to go home and EAT!!!!!

FOOD!!!! um...yes, thats about it...til next time.

the mormon crickets are coming to take me away....away to mormon cricket land.

its all stormy thundery lightningy outside...scary

im hungry, but its too late to eat...even a slice of bread will do....grrr

grrr(again) theres some people from the other apartments having fun outside on the balcony....cursed youth and their "fun"....why cant i have fun...

huh...watch "perfect strangers" or go to sleep....

*sigh* just feeling really bad right now...horrible. why must things take sooo long. you plan them out and what should take 1 second takes weeks and weeks. i guess my lunch/supper didnt help, i had 4 slices of bread, 2 granolas, a glass of orange juice and a coke....im just soooo horrible.

right now just isnt a good time, im at a moment where id do anything just to do something...wanna jump outta my skin and of course this is all my fault, me and my weak everything...gah.

whatever.

ah!!! shibby, theyre showing an indian movie on telly..isnt bollywood just grand?

today was pretty much blah...crazy lady in class always goes way off subject, shes all like..."blah blah blah and thats how jesus invented the internet..blah blah" and thats cos her subject was persian art....

other than that, the rest of the day was pretty much spent napping...now indian movie!!!!

anyway....my days seem to be getting mundane-er-er-er.....*sigh* oh well.

well, the highlight of yesterday was watching bright eyes on david letterman show, just stumbled upon it through boredom, but it made me oodles smiley. :) :) :)

todays school day should be mighty easy, im a little ahead, so i guess most of today was be spent in slumber land.

um...well....yes

omgosh how i hate reading for school work sake

i feel lightheaded heavyhearted

and thats my day.

...theres a star man waiting in the sky...

today has been kate bush day...i really need more of her albums....

should do some reading or something...yes.

theres just something about those cirque guys....*mmm cirque* :p

i just dont know.

i think its funny..or something, not quite sure...that jk rowling has claimed morrissey to be her biggest influence...its something alright.

the day had a little wah and a little grr....you cant win them all.

nap time.

well, this morning i was rudely awoken twice...thrice and they wouldve paid the price...sorry just being silly, but really..grr. first my phone starts vibrating around 5 something..darn my sensitive hearing...someone i really dont want to talk to, dont answer...then this morning im slapped to reality by the sweet sweet siren vocals of a certain axled rose...grr roommates.

today im just gonna try and get along with the world and move forward

well schools a calling..best get ready.

my friend once again asked me to move to california and my life here is so voidish that im actually considering the move. of course me and my friend might end up killing each other, but still...this is a new maybe in my life...maybe

hmmm....new albums by radiohead, sarah brightman...bjork best of dvd...live cranes album....grrr...why must music never stop coming...needs money......plus the other cds i need..interpol, goldfrapp, glass candy..., blood group, etc....mew

anyway, gots to do homework.

um...weekend was full of more nothingness..gallons of nothing if you will.

sat, got up, did some neting, got picked up and went "home"...talked on the phone with my friend...watched some buffy with mum..napped and talked more on the phone

today...got up, listened to some kate bush whilst i lunched...went to best buy for some photo papers...got a cd ;p, had to decide between tom waits and interpol, chose waits....wanted new or old goldfrapp, but only new available and it was 15....went mayo shopping at the health store...mayo guy wasnt there, but this other muscle head was there shopping with some girl and im pretty sure he smiled at me..not sure why...and now here i am..

i better get started on my homework or else i wont..haha..yes

*sigh*

nnnnnnnothing in life....i need to wake up from this ugly dream. hopefully i will live next week through a new set of open eyes..let it happen..let me move on.....but for now let me mope...

grrr....yesterday the internet was all sorts of evil to me and didnt work, i had to go to the library to check my email...not that bad i guess, walking is good...grr i say.

oh my gosh, isnt the "train" vid by goldfrapp just mighty great...sooooo sexy of course the uncensored version is much better...i remember the first time i heard the song i was all like..."um..dont really like song..blllll" but now that i know it more i think is great!!!...must get album...need album...

the darkwave net station is sooo funny, they pass of the weirdest things as darkwave...right now its sarah brightmans version of "eden"...how is that darkwave? placebo?..maybe...but dunno...i guess ill let the cranes pass as darkwave....huh?...queen?.haha

yesterday was just oodles of nothingness...lots of ants outside...wasps..wasps too...a couple of pretty guys...mostly grotty little critters.

i sooo love not having class til 11:05...its brilliant...i wont be saying that next term when i have class as 745.....*shudders*

ok ok i realize now that something is obviously wrong with the net radio station..now its police with every breath you take...stupid internet.

tonight i get to go to an art show!!! sure its just on campus, but still!!! its the opening of my crazy turkish lady friend...should be fun..of course ill feel weird amidst waves of peoples but meh...meh

wah

theres something charming about marilyn mansons remix version of "like a virgin"....feel shiny..

oh my gosh, ive been like sooo tired its not even funny...i was all dying in class yesterday...twas the stupid 2 week holiday...body clock all outta wack...ive even been going to bed early for an 11am class...i know, whats up with that...all i know is that i feel really not myself.

its good that i know people in the 2 classes that im taking..otherwise i might actually get my work done....supplies for the 2 classes came out to 160 dollars...eek.

ok, the 2 new roommates arent that bad...my first impression was that they were just 2 nondescript humanoids...but i guess theyre happiness is sorta nice...they stick together...keep it down...theyre ok i guess.

yesterday me and my friend watched oodles of vids...blur, suede, smiths and morrissey...thatll teach her to hang with me ;)

its funny how when youre trying to avoid somebody, the first thing you do is see them...head hurts.

im just sooo ugg lately...loneliness plus, junk food, no sleep, and other such factors....not good combos...

i sooo dont want to go to school tomorrow....i wont make it...ill die or something...i need rest, my heart needs rest...